IT IS NEGATIVE
It's official today ! I do know that the results of my beta hCG will be negative because I feel in my body the embryo does not exist. What else should I do because all it is only God who knows and the nature has done all. Hopefully, my husband still gives me a chance that I will try to another doctor. The doctor who I heard more provides comfort and information that I want. I've made an appointment for February but hopefully there will be an opportunity earlier. O Allah, give further opportunity for me and my husband. I don't give up !!
I AM HOPELESS.... AGAIN
Oh my God .. Today is my 13 days after embryo transfer, but I feel today is the final two weeks of waiting that I ve been waiting for the assurance of my second IVF cycle.This seems to have ended. I get bleeding like my period today. Where is the embryo gone ? the doctors said was an embryo with the best quality? Does God give this is the answer ... I feel so lazy to check my beta tomorrow because I already know the outcome ... so sad and unhappy. Forgive me my dear husband ...
HAVING CHILD IS MIRACLE
Children are a miracle from God and given to human by nature. For many years I have tried to have children but there are no results. Already a lot of needles and went in to theater room. The main cause was because of hormon disorder which is my uterus have abnormal cells that grow or Endometriosis. It was detected by a doctor from the beginning that I has a complex Atypical hyperplasia. Sometime I feel so sad because me and my husband had married before but we've never had children. And our desire to have children is very strong. My dear husband had to spend lots of money for my health and our desire to have a child as well. It does not feel nearly four years I had to go in-out of the hospital and fertility clinics. There are seven times I had operations, which for my endometriosis, tube pregnancy, salpingatomy and two times IVF cycle. Sometimes I think why the people who are poor and can not afford any healthy nutrition is very easy to get the children. It seems unfair that circumstances to me, but maybe I should be grateful that my life is very affluent.
